This was a question I was asked while filling out an online application. For the life of me I couldn’t think of anything! Nothing. Nada. Zip. What’s Up with that. I’m a self declared Disney nerd, am working on becoming a drag queen and yet when asked about my passions I draw a blank. Is there a problem with me. I do find myself having problems showing true emotion. Working retail has been an amazing exercise in looking like you give a fuck. I mean I’m really good at it. A guest giving me hell for not carrying an item ina certain size gets an Oscar worthy performance in giving a fuck from me.
I feel like I have a switch sometimes when talking to people. I’m a very shy and quite person, but I have been in situations where I have to be bright and approachable people, like at work. It feel foreign to me but I do it anyway because I have to.
When I was watching the Hunger Games I didn’t even feel bad when Ruth died (SPOILER ALERT) Don’t get me wrong it is sad but I didn’t feel it. You know, when you get that gut wrenching feeling in your stomach and all you want is a hug or something. I had a feeling that if I looked over to see my friends reaction she’d probably be crying and I just couldn’t. I guess hiding who I am has left me damaged in a way. I don’t get nervous, happy, anxious.